Unplanned Sex But Scared Of The Future, What Should I Do?

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Hello Mr. Richard, I am not at peace and I feel so choked up not knowing what to do, which is why I write this with so much guilt that has consumed me. I slept with someone else on my honeymoon! Yes i know i had just committed adultery in a marriage that has yet to even kick off and I feel terrible and I feel like dying. More so, I know I can never forgive myself, my husband will never forgive me. That is the ultimate sin, I know I could never forgive him if it was me. But I didn’t plan on sleeping with anyone during my honeymoon. My husband is partly the cause of this problem!

When he planned our honeymoon to South Africa, he actually planned it to coincide with a business retreat his company had planned for. So he wanted to use one stone to kill two birds. When we arrived at the resort, he quickly went into the retreat. So most of the time during the day, he would be attending a retreat. We tried to make most of the time during the night. I tried to have a good time too. But on the third day, their retreat took a different turn, my husband and his chairman had to travel to New-York for a business meeting that came up unexpectedly. So the retreat was put on hold.

I had to wait in the resort while my husband traveled to New York. The first day, I was so fed up. The resort is filled with so many nice places and interesting people. I was jealous I was alone. Some men hit on me but I avoided them. By the third night, I decided to hit the bar where I met a couple of people and I began to mingle. I drank quite a lot too. Being sex starved and drunk is a very bad idea. All I know was I was having a good time and I finally ended up with a man I hardly knew in my bedroom. The sexual tension was just too much. I just don’t know how I did it but I did and it felt amazing.

The next morning, after he left, I just started feeling like the most stupid woman on earth. I kept to myself all day, crying and asking God to forgive me. I just didn’t know what happened to me. I cursed my hubby for bringing me to this romantic place with so many distractions only for him to abandon me. When my husband came back on the fifth day, I tried to put all that happened behind me and focus on him. I pounced on him and made mad love to him. He was excited too. Maybe he thought that I missed him so much that’s why I was so into it. Yes, I missed him like crazy but I also wanted to bury myself inside him perhaps, as a way to block the images of what I had done in his absence.

While chatting over dinner at the resort restaurant, I was trying to have fun with hubby when a group of his colleagues came by and among them was the man I slept with nights ago. He was introduced as Scott, their company’s South African Director. I froze, he also recognized me and was in shock. We both managed our shock well. But I couldn’t eat anymore so I excused myself and went to our room. I cried and cried so much. When my hubby came in, he noticed that my face was swollen and knew I was crying and then he asked me what happened. I just told him I wanted to go home and he said ok not knowing what was really wrong. I tried to find Scott before leaving. I called his room no and begged him not to tell my hubby He said he was cool as long as I was.

I have had a very bad experience. I don’t know what the future holds but I beg the future, i beg God to never reveal what happened in South Africa on my honeymoon. I could never live if it happens to come out, I know I would commit suicide. But what if I tell my hubby like after sometime, like a year after or so? Do you think he could ever forgive me? Please help me.

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